Oh My God.....you've got to be kidding

well it has been awhile since I last made an entry. The rush of the holidays and all has left me a bit nonplussed. something happened the other day in the chat room I go to and thought how ironic. I was bemoaning the fact that so many Masters/SIRS and slaves/boys were not real.I notice that when you mention exchanging e-mails or phone numbers they suddenly come up with an excuse to not do it. That was when I SIR ask me to call him and I did. He assured me he was for real and was actively looking for a slave/boy. He also said he wanted one close to his age. That in itself is an anomaly. Most that are 40-60 are looking for 20-40 year-olds. Still I thought maybe.....maybe....this one is for real. After he assured me he was real and that he wasn't in the closet and everyone in his life knew he was gay....I thought great I have found a real SIR. That was short lived however. While talking with him he told me i needed to come visit him for a trail. i thought, ok go for it. after talking with him i searched flights to where he was. got the best price for booking 60 days in advance. when I saw the SIR in the chat room, i pvted him. He assured me it was ok. after initial chat i told him I had lookied into flying to where he was. Suddenly he couldn't do that. Here i thought i had finally met someone that wasn't a FANTASIZER and JO cyberr Hound and he tells me he can't see me and to wait and see. It was terribly deflating and depressing to hear.
We have all grown in our journey to know ourselves. I have done that since the search for a Master began. Many have told me they can tell if they start at the first blog and read them in order that I have grown and am more of myself. A natural born sub/slave/boy. Unfortunately I feel as if i am beating my head against a wall. Everywhere I turn i run into posers, liars and flakes or fakes. How hard is it, if you want a sub/slave/boy, to exchange e-mails and see if you are compatible and get to know each other. Or to exchange IM services and add each other to chat outside the hat room and spend some one on one time with out getting interrupted. You would think i was asking for them to give me a kidney or have their baby. i just don't understand the need for all the deception on the net I guess. i mean that is a forum where you can be yourself and find like-minded individuals. I wanted to find a SIR in 2009 but it looks like I will have to try again in 2010. Well i have said enough. i hope to meet a real SIR someday and he be the one that I NEED, WANT, and LOVE for a LTR. As usual if you have any comments or want to contact me e-mail me at raven15@consolidated.net