More What Is Up???

I have to say this First! I want to formally and publicly apologize to ANY and ALL Masters that I have chatted with in the past that I have mislead or or appeared to them as a player slave and wasn't real. As i have said in the first entry......it took along time for me to accept myself for what I am and that it is OK to be a Natural born slave and serve a Master. Which brings me to the first topic I would like to discuss. The issue of being REAL! The first thing you have to do is be real with yourself, whether you are a Master or a slave. Each has it's own set of responsibilities that must be faced head on with yourself in order to be the best Master or slave that you can be. Part of being real with yourself is acceptance and being OK with that acceptance. What I am talking about is self-esteem and self-realization.

As i have said, it took along time to accept and appreciate what i am and loving myself for it. i think this is the problem that is most prevalent on the slave side of the relationship and dynamic. In our "civilized" and "modern" world it is considered wrong to want to be with someone that whips, flogs, collars, makes you beg, is verbally abusive, demanding, and in control of every aspect of your life. And if you are That type of person that wants that in their life or as a way of life, then something must be wrong with YOU! Because of human nature's desire to be accepted and part of the group, many slaves have a hard time internalizing this and and living the life that they want, need, and deserve to be totally true to themselves and happy. A slave with compartmentalize this need they possess as an aspect of strictly sexuality and fantasy because it can be a hard thing to take and realize unless you have the right sell-esteem to begin with. For the gay slave even more so. Not only are they trying to be accepting of being gay, but to add that they are a born slave can make it seem insurmountable. i know that was the way it was with me. A slave in a chat room usually is really real about what they are seeking and what they are, but the conflict occurs when the realization that acting on it makes it TRUE! Sometimes it is the financial situation, family obligations, or being out in the country and not willing to move that makes the reconciliation of the need meshing with the reality a difficult thing to do. A born slave such as myself, definitely hungers,ravenously desires and Needs to serve a Master. It is accepting those desires with the right Master that can be tough. It has taken awhile but I have recently dug deep in myself and accepted that I am a natural born slave. I can now say that with pride at being that. I want to serve a Master proudly as his slave and property.
That being said, it doesn't mean that the same isn't true for a Master. But I will save that for next time. Any questions or comments can be sent to my e-mail at raven15@consolidated.net