The Master for me?!

Well i have said some things that relate to how I see things and will now attempt to say what it is that I NEED and WANT as a natural born submissive slave. I will disclose and expose my self and past in a way I have never really done.

First I have to say that while I am a very submissive and natural born slave, I am a very high spirited one. so my training and serving would be akin to the special way that you have to break in a Thoroughbred ( I was raised on a ranch). While breaking them in you have to balance that while not breaking the spirit of the horse. In that regard i try to balance my high spiritedness between being resistant enough for a Master to enjoy the dominance that He so richly Deserves and wants and being the submissive to make him proud. I suppose that is were the masochistic side of me lies. I NEED a very aggressive, demanding top Master to own me. one that isn't afraid to dominate me . It is that dominance that a natural born slave NEEDS and deeply desires in his soul. A MASTER that tells a natural born slave what to do and what he is and lazily goes through the motions of discipline and punishment with out praise and and true emotions is not what a slave needs or wants. One that gets in your face and tells you exactly what you are and what to do in the beginning of training is an essential part of my make up. As far as limits are concerned, i am of the belief that a slaves limits are determined by his Master with the exception of a few absolutes. My absolutes are children, women, scat, toilet(shit), blood and permanent harm or marks not associated with possession of ownership. Disclosing this masochistic side is something i would not have done until a few months ago. i enjoying working out and being something that my Master can be proud to own. I would hope that I have a Master that will let me continue to workout( if not forced for His pleasure) so that i could be the property of a proud Master. As a natural slave, i need to remind myself of my position and what I am to my Master. As for all the rest it is up to my Master. I, as a slave, Have no say so in that. he should be the no nonsense type that enjoys dominating by force if necessary i would like to find a mature Master over 40 that is a natural born Master and knows it. As far as working is concerned, i can work or not . Once again that is a decision left up to the Master. I have owned a cleaning co in the past so i am a very good domestic, and worked in the restaurant bus. for a longtime and can cook and can things.

My past. where to start. I was raised on a ranch by strict parents. They were much older than I and only have one left and she is 80. ten years ago I went to prison for a felony DWI. My father died while in my arms and if had a bad affect on me. i was in my early 20's when it happened. i have since gotten my life together and know who I am and what i NEED to have the life i want and deserve. I never had sex in prison, it was to risky, but it did expose me to real Dom/sub relationships. When i first go out I was on parole for awhile, which I knew would make it difficult to find a Master. there were the issues of transferring parole and all. so in many ways that left me feeling as if there wasn't a way to be what I was and no Master would want me. Thank God that is over! My career as an LCDC,Licensed Chemical Dependency Counselor, is so that any young gay or older gay men don't have to go through what I did to reach my inner self and like what I found there. It is something that plagues the gay community and not just the leather community. The past is something I cannot change and have accepted that. If a Master can only define a slave for their past and not their present, then perhaps he needs to take a look in his past and released what he is ashamed of.

well that is all for now. If you have any comments or want to know more you can e-mail me at raven15@consolidated.net If you are a Master that is interested, say something to me.